I'm sorry I didn't mean to call you
But I coudn't fight itI guess I was weak and couldn't even hide it
And so I surrended just to hear your voice
I know how many times I said I'm gonna to live with out you
and maybe someone else is standing there beside you
But there is something baby that you need to know
That deep inside me i feel like Im dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking

Vida, give me back my fantasies,
The courage that I need to live
The air that I Breathe
Carino mio, my worlds become so empty
My day's are so cold and lonely,
and each night I tasteThe purest of Pain

I wish I could tell you I'm feeling better every day
That it din't hurt me when you walked away
But to tell you the truth I can't find my way
And deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all..

Quisiera decirte que hoy estoy de maravilla
que no me ha afectado lo de tu partidapero
con un dedo no se tapa el sol.
Estoy muriendo, muriendo por verte.
Agonizando, muy lento y muy fuerte.
Vida, devuelveme mis fantasias,
mis ganas de vivir la vida,
devuelveme el aire.
Cariño mio, sin tin yo me siento vacio,
las tardes son un laberinto,
las nochesme saben, a puro dolor..


[ the road is long, god knows, wat have i done? ]

walow eh.. kena send out of class again just for standing up.. whats this?? tmr exam.. so fast.. cant wait to go sec 3.. sec 2 sucks.. today nth much happened also.. so boring.. exams faster over leh!! it sucks.. 13 oct den last paper.. siann.. wats so nice bout the championship manager game anyway?? that nice meh.. hahs.. ok.. ok so tmr wil be another boring day.. wed thurs not so bad.. but still boring.. friday will be the worst.. argghh!! lost 5-3 to ORA.. heartache mann.. should not let in the goals.. too soft mann.. but i nvr play so yeapp all did their best.. so now not in finals.. wat mann.. wats wrong wif me?!?! arrhh.. Theme for this week: BORING..



[ right thing for the right time.. ]

allright.. tomorrow is da last day of da week.. sun is the semis against ORA.. cant wait mann.. well sat also gonna have family gp too.. i will never remember this day.. first the principal came into my class for 45 minutes and spot check.. teacher extra and talk so big.. when she go off, it was back to fun of course.. hell mann.. science learnt bout chapter 6.. nothing much.. did worksheets for maths, had test for chinese, quite ok.. music teacher nvr come, history made my hand ache like what.. walow.. tmr another siann day.. why friday??? but heck.. just train tomorrow and forget everything! Exams are coming.. YEAH!! No lessons.. Can study like siao.. The bad thing is of course results la.. why is everybody asking me eh you quit arh? hahas.. a lot quite friendly ba, but... i don't want to look back at that exprience, horrible.. What i ask god for is always strength and self control.. I have very little self control.. But this 3 things touched my heart.. LOVE, FAITH, HOPE.. this are the 3 values that will keep me going on with life, to me its the most important of all.. God showed his love by sending his only son to die for us, I must show love to others, love your neighbour as thyself, love thy enemies.. Faith, its hard to trust someone, if we have faith in god, nothing is impossible. I believe in him and I will receieve eternal life. My prayers that are casted upon him, I have faith that he will answer. God has hope in me and you, He has faith in me and you, he loves me and you. Hope, hope is never gone unless you let it pass away. No matter what, God has hope in us, Psalm 133:1.. Unity is pleasant.. I learnt a lot, but it was time.. When is the time? I wish my batch the best of luck next year, keeping it the highest possible ever.. The 3 overrule every principle of every human virtue.. The foundation of chirst teachings..


[ i am touched and anguished ] I'm sorry to all..

hmmm.. what a day today.. first must fill up don know what stupid sportsman award.. play basketball like siao.. maths lesson was fine.. science lesson got test.. siann.. minus 3 marks already.. a bit hard.. well the english was super fun.. ram got smacked on the face by a badminton racket that was swung by sarravanan.. haha.. i also don't understand why prashan, arun and matthew like sarra's hair so much.. he was very fierce.. scary.. Cooked cupcakes then, nothing much.. played with fire and lots of stuff.. quite nice though.. after school eat den go home.. siann.. now need to study.. oh well guess it was meant to be.. I want the photos!!!





[ what a friend i found ]

would you believe if i say i'm free!! i'm no longer a prefect so now i have turned back into a student.. yea!! it was so fun being a student after 9 months of torture, i got sent out of class and had laughters all the way.. after school went back home, wah sian.. got 4 test this week mann.. project and stuff.. cannot tahan mann.. why oh why.. but however today was super fun.. i gotta go for art remedial.. yeah!! i really want to do well in this final year so i am willing to sacrifice anything.. but it will be tough.. 1 more week and its final year exams.. it is so fast.. next yr sec 3 le!! i cant wait to see the new board la..

In my heart there is anguish and pain,
as i just could not explain.
My bitter habits that comes everyday,
i did wrong today.

I felt bad, guilty and sorrowful,
I just want to go to school.
Why oh why must this happen to me?
Guess it was meant to be.

What can i say?
As time goes by.
Where is the light?
Better it comes before i cry.

I walk in darkness most of the time,
as my heart drew many lines,
anger and frustration for fun?
better run, before i hunt.

I stole the heart of stone,
why? why? why?
as i picked up the phone,
it was a person full of wisdom and faith.

I think hollywood will be a good place for you,
see whether u dare to act cool,
I am a loner that can do nothing,
i know god will one day do something.



[ somewhere out there, i can see, hear, smell, feel and speak. ]

my mind is made up..

























why must this happen to me? arrggghhh!!!!!!!!!!!

tired tired tired.. that is all i can say.. hahs.. today was super fun.. PE first, so played basketball like crazy. Maths later but teacher did not come! woohoo.. free period.. but gt some work to do la.. science lesson was super boring.. eng lesson teacher also did not come.. what a joke.. home economics did stupid things but overall it was fun.. haiyo final yr exams coming.. why why why.. ah yes now everybody in my class crazy over this game murderer.. hahs.. keep playing everytime we can..

whats the hurry?? why can't i jus make things easier? won't that give me a little bit more freedom.. after Final year exams then drag on.. drag somemore.. its screwed, hopeless, nothing worthless.. faith that is a very complicated thing, but why people keep doing this to me? Always the oppesite of me, just when i needed the right moment at the right time. The habit that is always on a person's mind, too addidictive, but however there is always a solution to every problem. People have went through it, why are you stopping me? do i have a choice? of course i have, decisions are so hard to be made. In everything give thanks for this is the will of god. What hope? love? faith? seriously i don't care, no matter what the decision is final.

Didnt you say?
I promise we will work it out.
Guess i never thought things would turn out this way.
I don't care who is right or wrong.
Why are you dragging it so long?
I'm sick and tired of this anyway.

I'm sorry for the things that i made you cry,
guess this time it is goodbye,
I saw a foot step down.
But i felt like a fool because i let you down,
what now? what now?
i'm gone, i'm falling, i'm sorry,
guess i saw a tear pouring down.

[ only heaven knows ]

Mould me, guide me
Lead me, walk beside me
I give my life to you the potter's hand

Warmer than the brightest smile
Always going for the extra mile
Life with the Lord is so amazing

Beautiful Lord, Wonderful saviour
I know for sure you are there
Held in your hands, crafted in tune

Hearing your calling, into your presence
Guided me by your holy spirit
Teach me O Lord to be a example

Starry Starry Night..


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